Embracing the Darkness

I often find solace in darkness, I find darkness  majestically tyrant but Synchronously soothing, darkness that follows the enormous light bring peace to my Euphoric mind that somehow manage to ruthlessly massacre zest of mine. There are stones patronizing Pilgrimage, sometimes darkness remind me of them, how some of these stones turn in to the pebbles because of rigorous friction of feet that bless their stubborn nature, I find darkness in the core of our soul that embrace the integrity of atoms that bring our body in to existence. When you think of taking a break after sabotaging yourself too many times you stop your boat sailing at the shore of darkness your Melancholic voice and gothic attire like a lost pirate reminds me that a man of God has choosen the war within, you might lose the battle but you conquer the will to fight, the battle That begin to show why we are our own enemy, cost sheer focus, will and discipline. Light for me is a pathway between the darkness if there is no light around you, you will always ended up inside darkness, that gothic attire you wore on the day of battle is symbolizing the readiness of our mind to accept that you are yearning to win and willing to seal the spot of peace after dissolving the entire personality traits you acquire while you were living the life of intentional misery. You fought like a hero and the moment you thought you have won the battle somethings gone terribly wrong  the sword that you carried while fighting and was carved by the element of darkness tentatively poked the self sabotaging spirit of the underlying insecurities at the very last moment of the war, you provoked the worst. 

You P R O V O K E D the summoning of the past it's full of grief this world of past seems so morbid you are suffocating and choking for the fresh air, now you are about to faint in the darkness forever, nobody will ever know you were fighting the war within for so long, nobody will ever came to know about the bravery you put in to context while people were judging you in the light of the world, when everyone around you thought you were a loser, you were fighting this whole time the greatest wars alone anonymously. Now your eyes are about to close, the oxygen deprived body of your's is shutting down and you were expecting an Almighty shimmering light to come for the rescue.

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After passing a years or two, now you are lying on the deck of your cruise the same pirate ship wearing the same gothic attire but this time it's more snug and armoured, the gentle cold breezes of the coast is refreshing, sun is at the top of your head everything is drawn perfectly the way you wanted, now you have got to admit that your character is built strong after fighting those hard times and the darkness still is in your psyche and now you're cruising your way to reach to the home built on the top of the hill comprised of black walls, you are having glass of Champaign sitting on the Barcalounger chair, you put on you favorite jazz song and everything slowly fades, like it's never happened and you are thinking about the shimmering light that saved you at the end of the war, you look out from the window, your ship is anchored and tides are roaring intensely, a thought plunge your mind but a soothing voice from the hallway break your thought process;

'Are you alright? '.